old dreamflake from old notes

From Notes:

'Equvipelent' -

or a word similar

(spelt out in the dream)

- meaning

giving a gift (eg jewelry) to some one who knows the full previous meaning of the gift

TV shows short woman runs through

the evening crowds

London

on the phone

stating that only people on the list -

holds up my tattered - ripped up

address page from my pocket diary

- get mentioned in our magazine

they have paid

No one else

on the phone in the other room

not their office - but the open plan one beyond

with a 'donor' possibly told off

others come back from lunch

moves back to own office puts sign on the outside

the phone calls are secret

illegal?...

Guy pokes head around door

states

'don't look like you're that busy'

Woman (secretary) comes in

and

guy wants to chat

wonder how long she has been there

did she overhear?...

I must have WOKEN here

since there are no more notes.

25/26 August 09 -pattering of heavy dream-drops from last night

Why do I keep on dreaming about Russia?

well into the dream...

and we're in Russia

quite where I cannot recall

a prison?

a...

some situation where escape is a desired option ?

...

something like that...

Grey day

bleak low buildings

muddy? broken grassless ground

grey churned frozen mud

A storm?

I look over there

a small tornado

grubby brown by the grey sheds

in the mid-distance

an old

a middle-aged man

is over there

escaping

I realize

possibly some one states this

'he's going to get away'

or such

(daylight embellishment?)

then we see - still in the distance

beyond the twister

he is confronted by 3 or 4 men

guards?

the main guy an official?

not in uniform

I don't recall if he runs away

or if he talks first

less convinced by the talking first

He runs

the main guy lifts his gun

do the others fire?

it seems likely they do

but I don't recall that

dreamjump

and I am the man on the run

and I can see the main guy holding his gun at arms reach in the distance

taking his time to aim

to kill me

am I the man on the run?

or nearby

not sure

the man on the run slows

does strange small head movements

to avoid being predictable

to avoid being shot

but

the man with the gun doesn't move

he waits -

the man on the run is about to pass behind the wall

and hence have cover

but I realise that the man with the gun has aligned it so at the point the escapee passes the wall is the point he can get a shot off

and that is getting closer and closer

and it doesn't matter how odd the escapee's head wiggles are

or how fast or slow they go

the point crossing behind the wall is the point when he'll have a clean shot

Dreamjump?

must have been

the Escapee / me???

is running down the grey open muddy street

other people are also running

fleeing

the storm is still going

as he runs along

he comes across a beaked military (?) hat

lying in the rutted muddy ground

? a prison guard?

others are using the storm to escape

even those on the oppressing side

possibly he is a spy trying to escape...

not sure...

and it goes

faded by the sunlight of forgotten

possibly moments later

possibly after a long dream

there are maps

how to escape from Russia

they confuse me

the Arctic Circle as seen from above as a rectangular map

I never knew

Malaysia was so close to Alaska?

to the Arctic Circle

America??

you just jump across

Ah

but here is another

the bottom slither of South America

and how

the bottom wedge of ?? Africa?

South America again?

touches it at right angles

between them

all yellow sandy land with a few squiggles of blue lines for water

rivers? or natural canals between seas

that beach must be huge...

and then on down to Antarctica

Not seen that before

too used to looking at it all on a globe

and then it is gone

much less clear

already mostly evaporated by the day

... living in a house...

...getting a bus...

... getting off...

being above the road

on the pavement above the route

we're not in New Zealand

America perhaps?...

London???

not sure...

I'm looking down from the greenery

onto the road below

at the bus

following

spying on?

a mature woman

possibly in a business suit

I'm on the bus

wait

possibly was looking down at the bus

after I got off...

I am on the bus

and I get off at the stop I think I should get off at

but I am wrong

I have to walk further along

I have gotten off a road too early

and so walk along the verdant grass side of the street

with trees towering around the route down the right turn I thought I should take.

I walk across the open grass - beside the road

cutting a corner to get to the next right turn

it turns out it to be a T junction

which seems odd to me

I'd swear it was a right turn where I get off.

But this is right

I walk to the right

this part of the street is crowded with houses and shops (?)

semi-residential

looks quite old London-esque

I walk down the street

dreamjump

or

memory fade

and I am inside the house with JK

or

am I inside the house climbing the stairs

and I meet JK?...

the rooms we pass seem full of stuff

books, records, all sorts of stuff

do all the rooms - or just some...

we come to a turning off the landing onto the stairs

and there are books and board games,

lots of old board games

tied together with string?

blocking the stairs

filling the stairs

I scramble over them

coming next to a stack of Tintin hardbacks

all resting spine up in my way

I try to step around them but cannot

JK comments he doesn't need to

I think it is that his longer legs means that he can step on the gaps inbetween the boxes and stuff - where as I have to walk on them...

the dream fades

was there more

I don't know

But

I WAKE.

12/13 August, the end whisp of a dream

It had been a long dream

I groggily lay there writing this in my notebook when I woke early

even now as I type it up

I am aware of how logical it all felt

a lot had happened

but i don't recall any of it now

even as I noted it

I was aware I couldn't really grasp it beyond the immediate last few moments

those hours of dream-mists had already blow off by consciousness:

Some one else comes down to the vault

marble stairs

marble vault

daylight embellishment???

he was someone from earlier in the dream

possibly in narrative terms the antagonist?

we talk

the essence is we're saying

"here help us get this out of here"

and

he is going

"No"

was he official?

army ?

medals strip on official uniform??

or not?

guy in coat???

somehow - man with power??

official??

I think

He is saying 'no' in the way - 'this is too useful for us here'

'it has potential'

it is powerful - hence keeping it here in Moscow

is useful for the Russian future

unconcerned about the danger to the people here...

I turn to him

"1oo rads, 2oo rads, 300 rads," - I keep counting

100 / second

'this is how much you're taking every moment'

we turn the corner of the stairs

"500, 550, 600, 650,"

my count changes

the stone between us will be absorbing the radiation

"this is how much radiation you taking"

"you give me that stuff, terrorism and a way to weaponize it

and I can make Moscow uninhabitable for a million years"*

(daylight entanglement

it wasn't quite said this way)

A blank look of uncomprehending terror

'That's not a thousand -

A Million.

so long your puny brain cannot comprehend it"

I pound the guy in the chest as I say this

(do I ?

or was that a daylight embellishment?)

I WAKE.

previously

I think

there was a race across Moscow ?

(the whole dream was set in russia

I think...

certain most of it was)

other people

demonstrators

were trying to stop us

we get to

the bank????

not sure

somewhere

where we are headed

large Marble glorious hall

large entrance way windows?

sunlight streaming in everywhere

central

a marble set of steps

going down into the ground

going down these

they turn a corner into

a subterranian hallway

the vault

where everything else

(here recorded)

then happens

down to the vault

it all felt like a thriller

some film

something

very undreamlike

...

* = what i mean here

is if he keeps it here in Moscow

given two other things this is a likely outcome

not that 'I' would do this

but 'I' can foresee this as what will happen

dream from some time ago (from notes)

Apologies for not posting this earlier:

there's a back garden

being kept as a zoo

here a party is going on

the Tiger is being kept

in a Summer House

(posh shack like hut)

like the one my friend's family had at the bottom of their garden when I was a child

it was on rollers and you could twirl it around

it was wood and had a large amount of windows in the front - with double doors

Lion is also kept somewhere

both are out

Bunter (my cat) is a medium sized dog (???!)

and jumps up at me seeking attention?

not afraid - but keen

or was he afraid...

not sure

hair all up on end

scared - alarmed

or intensely aware

both Lion and Tiger are out -

I'm holding one by a leash

the other I have by the scruff of their neck

did I capture one ?

was it the lion?...

trying to not let them

get into a fight each other

(may or may not happen

not a definite though)

Dreamjump

The Tiger is now back in the Summer House

Lion back in something lockable / secure

The Tiger tries to push their way out of the bottom of the old wooden door

it is slightly bendy

giving slightly

(as if rotten - rather than solid)

not sure how long this'll last

"This isn't going to hold

we need chains - something

to secure the door more -

one at the top, one at the bottom"

I'm telling

someone?

the party goers?...

what sort of party is it?

are there families? children?

it is daytime

I don't recall

I look in through the windows

inside the summer house

there's a bed

How long it'll be before the tiger realizes they can jump up on the bed

and hence up and over the top of the doors

and out

yes the Summer House doors are only so high

and there is a open gap between the top of the doors and the ceiling

then I realise that

out back of the Summer House

there is a pathetic weave fence

(that could never hold back any large beast)

about only 4 feet high!

possibly even less with the ground here rising up towards

the back of the Summer House.

'Surely the Tiger could get over this no problem!'

but around

the party people

laugh and drink outside this

Earlier - I was walking with the tiger on the leash without a problem...

Ok

and here's a bit of the notes I recall not:

Oh

when we were trying to keep the Tiger in the Summer House

under the doors

( I think around the time the Tiger was trying to get out)

little strange creatures

and little 'fake' creatures

are there for 'the ride'

what was this?

I really don't remember

did you need the little creatures as tickets

to get on the rollercoaster ride???

or were they trying to get on the back of the tiger for that ride?...

as we put the Tiger back in the Summer House

the Tiger ???

those who had come to my aid??

someone

was grabbing up handfuls of the little creatures / the fakes...

and I wake...